Testing...testing...tested!!

cool? was just rying the line in the free wifi zone to upload the pic. Ma senior told me it can be done( it really can!!) Fu-yoh! i got a place to upload my pics!!! Rock on!

stay tuned.....

Battle against the Assignments!

It has been quite a battle! The pen and laptop still smoke from the heat of war. The cunning mind still contemplating on the plot and strategy to greater victory. The brave and mighty, barely surviving the onslaught. It has been a battle to end all. It has been a struggle to advance the ranks, to secure the beachhead, to claim victory. Rest for now, my fellow comrades, the war is far from over!!

The last two weeks were filled with assignments and their due dates. The first being 111 and then 103, with the deadline, just hours ago. The rush to type, research and type more, is evident. The strain on our mental and physical state of being was far from what we would call sane. Futhermore, with the addition of WUS 101 (don't even remind me!) and Sunday School and Musical Drama Nite, my body almost succumbed to the battery of lethargy. My worst came on Tue, when I over-exerted myself to rush for my French class, it took its toll on me. Until now, I have regained much of my strength, to thank the healing of God, but there is still more to do. I guessed, when my teachers in secondary school, talked about the best years of life in university, this must be the part that they skipped. (grin) And yet, a small part of me silently agrees to the fact that after this ordeal is over, after the final blow of victory and after the last wave of onslaught, I will be a different person. Hopefully, wiser, stronger, and humbler.

To all of my frens out there! May you have the best of strength and fortitude for your assignments!

Deja Vu

Have you ever heard ppl saying that the lightning doesn't strike the same place twice? Or the banana does bear fruit twice? Have you even watched the movie, starring Denzel Washington? Well, deja vu means a feeling or a phenomena where you are in a a totally foreign surrounding, but you feel as if you have been there before. My frens, deja vu just happened to me this morning. In fact, it isn't about what I just said. I was late for my French class..again..(wa?) Yeap..you have heard me right. I had a blocked nose on Monday. Then, I woke up at 8am and rushed to catch a bus. The irony is that it we are going to have a spelling test today. sigh...I prayed hard...In the bus, I started thinking, and just felt tired. Arriving there, I just said bonjour.. and found a seat. It turns out, the test was postponed to next week, Tue. Ahhh...a breath of relief. and yet, I guessed the blocked nose, and all that running (I think I can audition for The Pursuit of Happiness 2!) sort of got to me. I just felt tired. So, I went and took a nap somewhere, and din't go for my 111 tutorial. I wonder how did the guys do?hmm... I just hope and pray I would be better and could finish my assignments. Heck, I din't even plan to go to NRIC meeting tonite. Just too tired.

Before I end, I want to write a few things. I had been thinking and considering about 'her'. It seems that the post in my blog has attracted a lot of attention (not that I'm complaining..) Apart from that, I felt a sense of duty to explain to you, my frens. I have decided that whatever is done, is done (not that I did a lot..) and that if I were to make a move, it would not be the best for both of us. I, myself can't be sure of my own feelings. Therefore, even before 'she' gives me an answer, I opt to say that we stay as frens. Besides, i guess it's just my nature to say that if you love a person, their happiness means much more than your own. Sounds kolot(old-fsashioned) I know, but hey, that's just me. Ppl come first. Why waste their time and emotions, if i am not willing to commit. Well...that's it. I hope I din't pull your hopes too high. Guess all my aunt's and mom's drilling(nagging) about being a responsible man got stuck in me. Truly, since you could only choose your spouse and have her for life, why not choose with care and consideration. I could only pray to God and hope that I am well-prepared when and if Ms. Right comes. And to you, my readers, thank you for lending your eyes in reading and your concerns in caring.. may you find the person you have been looking for.

Her

It was a clear blue day. Waking up drowsy, I ended up being just on time for my meeting at the cafe. At the middle of the meeting, it was when the heavens looked like it opened and down came an angel. She came down from the flight of stairs and looked majestic nevertheless. I picked up my courage and went to where she was and started a conversation. I don't know whether she noticed, but I think I had been staring.., no...I mean captivated at her beauty. Gosh, I guess I need helpto sustain myself from smiling (I think I melted like chocolate!) all throughout the conversation. Such peace and calm. Sigh, yet I always have a pang of guilt and low self-esteem. How could I be compared to her? How could I even think about it? Well, I guess it would just end in the same way, as it seems to have always been. Me, being the one left one, the unlucky and lonely one in this game they call LOVE. I guess being friends doesn't really hurt anyone...does it? Maybe this is what they mean by loving someone and putting their happiness before anything else!!!

FEAR

FEAR

What causes fear? What causes someone to be afraid? What is fear? Is it something that makes your hairs stand on its end? The things that go bump in the night? The cries of a tortured soul ? The howl of an animal, deep in the forest? The feelings of unrest? Or rather, is it something you could never control? The fear of the unknown? Have you ever been fearful? Have you ever heard tales of the supernatural? The unexplainable? The downright creepy? Have your ever truly questioned fear?

It seems that fear is part of our human nature. To feel small, to feel afraid, to feel helpless. Yet, it is at these times, that we truly know, we are but humans, walking on the face of the Earth.

I heard tales of mystery, supernatural and downright twisted last 2 weeks before Chinese New Year. It seems a certain being, or entity is on the prowl. A thing, so vile and evil, that seemingly walks in our midst, unharmed by the shackles of justice. The thing is claimed to have started a string of heinous crimes. Crimes that satisfy its lust for power, domination and evil. Allegations spread like wildfire. Victims seem to wound up everywhere, unable to do anything against it. Authorities tried their best to calm the situation, yet to no avail. People start leaving their rooms. Panic sets in. Late night activities seized. The whole vibrant surrounding suddenly came to a halt. No one knows what really happened. Theories sprung up. “It must be this….” “ No, I think its ….” And yet, the questions continue to crop up, more and more. Every soul started to look behind their backs everywhere they went. Skeptical, yet unwilling to let their guards down. Finally, a glimmer of hope vaguely appears. We are to have our scheduled holiday. And yet, in each of our hearts, we deeply hope, that on our return, the fear which had set in, will finally be taken away.

And yet, I could not help but wonder, whether I had taken a time machine and ended up in a modern setting of London, when Jack the Ripper roamed. It was truly fear, in its full entirety. May you find peace in God, my friends.

touchdown

I have finally manage to take a flight to my home. Its my first time flying solo. Had a jolly good time (can't stop smiling and grinning aboard the plane!!) feels like i'm on a roller-coaster! especially during the take-off and landing. (wipe sweat) And had a great teatime and dinner also. Very exhausted by the time I got back home and writing this post.lol. I would find a time to write about FEAR, as i wanted to. However, i am now on the SAR(search and rescue) for my windows disc. You heard it rite. I kept my ori disc so well..i gotta search the whole house for it. sigh. My laptop got infected and the virus wiped out my entire anti-vi system. Cracking my brain now for the cure.

Gotta go now. Need to catch some zzz's !!

take care and have a prosperous Chinese New Year!!

The Middle Ground

I'm in this middle ground between my works and holidays. Well, CNY is coming, and I will be going back to celebrate. The other thing is, I'll also be bringing my assignments back home. Yeap, you heard it right, my assigments. 5 mega-big things to do. I'm still doubting whether I could finish it all. on average, it'll be 1 assignment a day. Wish me luck!! After the holidays, I'll have to pass them all up, and engage in the preparation for exams. Sigh..Not to mention also being involved in NRIC, Musical Drama Nite (CCC&LWCF) and Children Workshop! I guess it is going to be one big, busy semester for me. Yet, it is through this storms of trials that I learn to seek God's grace and wisdom in leading me through.

Will keep y'all updated on the later things. Gotta go now.

p/s: have you truly seen FEAR?